I booked my plane ticket this morning. There was something really corny and metaphorical about booking a one-way ticket to a foreign country (Don’t worry grandma, I’m coming back. I just don’t know what my finals schedule is yet so I can’t book my return ticket.) I leave at midnight on March 15th and it’s hard to even wrap my head around.
My study abroad experience hasn’t even really started and I’m already realizing so many things about myself...
1. I know literally nothing about travel itineraries. I had to ask my dad if the time on my plane ticket was in Hawaii time or German time. Apparently I’m arriving in Stuttgart at 1:45 PM GERMAN TIME but you may as well blindfold me and hit me on the head with a baseball bat because I’ll still be confused when I get there. It’s fine. Everything is fine.
2. I am capable of so much more than I thought I was. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would get the opportunity to study abroad in Germany. But why did I doubt myself? Why didn’t I think I could do it? I’m not sure if it was calling the German consulate (Visas are confusing) or booking the plane ticket that really cemented this in my brain, but I’m doing it. I could have traveled to Germany and back 300 times in the period I spent telling myself that this dream was crazy.
3. “I am complete but I am not finished.” I'm so happy and so proud of the place I'm in right now. I'm not looking for someone or something to complete me because I'm already whole--and that's such an incredible thing to realize. I have a business that constantly inspires me, I'm studying a subject that challenges me, and I have friends and family that support me. My cup is overflowing with love and luck and opportunity, but this is just the beginning for me. In fact, I haven't even crossed the starting line yet. The guy hasn’t even shot that fake gun. My feet are still on the starting blocks, y’all.
I’m so excited to continue to share my journey as I discover more things about myself and Germany and business and bratwurst and lederhosen. Maybe not those last two things but definitely the first three.